Changes

With my former beliefs about God,and how life worked, when I wanted change I prayed, fasted, treated, lined up my vibration, got insights from numerology, read every book on the subject, attended lots of seminars and spent lots of time and effort.

After a year and a half of looking at this life totally different, I was wondering a few days ago if any changes have happened. Because I don't process or do anything to make a change anymore, I often don't notice what's happening on the outside.

But I am fully aware of what is happening on the inside! I wrote my friend about this:

Though I have not seen major changes in my hologram, the FEELING of awareness that it is all illusion is growing. I think of things that sent a scare wave through me before like my car being taken away as a small example, and there is a knowing that my car is a prop holding up a bunch of scenes with banks, government, finances. There is no fear anymore that it may disappear and no more feeling of being irresponsible.

That is a small example. The big examples are the ones I feel but cannot quite articulate.

My friend sent this reply:

I echo your thoughts about nothing major changing in your hologram but the FEELING of awareness is growing. That is exactly what is happening with me. Since what is happening is coming from Consciousness, then this is exactly what has to happen first before we can see any changes. Long before we actually see any changes we have to feel it.

I'm feeling it and loving it.