Several Moonbeams Long

Here's the note I got from the Universe today:

Would you believe, Marilyn, that here, in the unseen, just a breath away from "there," in time and space, we have gardens with such sweet fragrances they actually caress passersby? That we have melodies so rich you can actually see them dancing through the air? And colors so exquisite they tickle all of your senses?

That there are planets where everyone knows each other's names? Where flying comes naturally to all? And some have moons that hum lullabies each night?

Yet as spectacular as the infinite choices are, would you further believe that there's still quite a queue, several moonbeams long, to get back "there"? Where for every heart beating, there's a legend in the making.

You have no idea.

"NEXT!"
The Universe

P.S. Or do you, Marilyn?

Now I've heard of this concept of people lining up in Paradise to come back here for another chance to be here on the earth. But I never understood it.....until March of 2009.

Now it makes so much sense. Back in our natural state where there is no opposites: no dark and light, no victims or villains or heros either, no fear or failure, but no love or success either......simply the Allness of All there is ALL the time.....

It would sure be fun to enter the earth simulation for another day or so (100 earth years) and play another character role and a whole new adventure with the risks, the pain and the exhilerating triumphs.

Oh yes....I'm so glad I got in that moonbeams long line!

Google Holodeck

Gosh, Google built this toy to replicate the feeling of seeing the world from above. It is really fantastic - yet it is still an experience of being "the observer" rather than being fully immersed in the experience.

However, I can see the day when you zoom in, pick a place, let's say a house, then pop yourself right in one of the rooms and become the character right IN the movie, instead of just watching.

Which is possibly what we are all doing right now!

Video: One Big Super Hologram

Here is an interesting short video by a guy who believes the matrix exists and that it is one big super hologram. Interesting that it ends with 2 rabbits:

Do We Live in a Matrix?

Wow, I came across a bunch of new videos on the Matrix, and each one, all different authors, shared their message that they believe we are in a matrix and we need to wake up. One even described the purpose of waking up (you will find it in the comments) and it fits exactly what Robert Scheinfeld has discovered as well.

I am not posting the actual video that contains the comments. The video is of a television set and how it "grows" both horizontally and then vertically, and the scene on the T.V. readjusts itself to the new shape. It's too long and when I saw it the first time, I was bored. However, this time I advanced through and saw some written messages and this is the first one:

Modern life has built in safeguards to prevent us from remembering who we truly are. This is the real meaning behind 2012.

Comments: Then I read the comments at the bottom of this video:

Today I discovered how to tap into the reality matrix that dictates the arrangement of Light into matter. Yes.
Light. EVERYTHING is made of Light.
Light is Information.
Dark is lack of information.
(Hence the old adage, knowledge is power, and Let there be Light)

Once you can successfully attune your vibrations like I have. You can do ANYTHING. I have successfully figured out every "super power" except flight and teleportation.

This list includes levitation, molecular body regeneration, muscular shape shifting, access to varying time potentialities (parallel realities), magnetism, weather control.The trick to all of these things though is perfect moral turpitude and living in Love.

Its a lot harder than it sounds.  Not many people have done this in history. The few that have are called Avatars. This lists includes Budda,and Jesus among others.

For the first time in thousands of years, ALL of humanity has access to these abilities now as we enter the photon belt. 2012 is NOT the end of the world. It's the beginning of your OWN private reality that you can co-create as you see fit.

In his recent analysis of the Universe, Stephen Hawkings said that the final solution to the mystery would be understandable and applicable to all men. The actual crossing of this ultimate frontier would be made by Theophysics and Metaphysics.

The trick is to win this "prize." You must end your world. You must...WAKE UP.

Stop living life like "society" has trained you. Stop watching TV, reading the newspaper, being influenced by ANYTHING outside of yourself. Stop eating processed foods that are DESIGNED to keep you vibrating low. Stop using fluoride, which helps to promote calcification of your pineal gland. Stand in YOUR truth. LIVE IN LOVE.

ANY fear or doubt WHATSOEVER will surely block your path.

Any reoccurring obstacles of situations you find yourself in is a message of an INTERNAL issue you must deal with, resolve, and bring to the surface of YOURSELF to bypass and move on in your spiritual evolution.

More info on the REAL rules of reality...
Montalk.net and any book by David Icke.

Cause and Effect in Darlene's Hologram

Darlene's Body Game has taken up decades of her life already, so patterns are deeply entrenched.  Here she shares her insights into cause and effect:

I reread for the zillionth time that in order to bust loose you have to shift attention away from your creations and set it squarely on You the Creator and the True Creative Process. Ooooh. You mean even this fatigue? Like...seriously?

For more than 20 years I’ve been chasing the cause...trying to catch the mechanical rabbit. What would it mean to me to totally and completely stop chasing the myth of Cause & Effect?

I also read again for the umpteenth time where Robert says “Since you create your own playing field, rules and regulations as you play the Human Game, you also create your own consequences (if I do X I experience Y result) to enhance the illusions you create. You then reward and punish yourself by putting reward and punishment patterns in the Field, adding power to them and popping them into your hologram so they appear real. Then you strengthen those illusions – especially the illusion of cause and effect – within the hologram. It’s really quite a brilliant and extraordinary creation.”

As she experiments with true Cause, which is in the Field of pure potential, she has been able a few times to see right through the illusions of the pain and of the cause of the pain. She spends her time now reclaiming all that amazing power that was hidden away that can now be used to play a whole different body game.

I'm looking forward to the next clips of her movie.

Arthur Young on Cause and Effect

As I re listened to David Bohm's clip on Perception, I didn't hear him address the subject of Cause and Effect!  Yet I heard it plainly before.  So either I included a different video or I heard something else.  I was going to type, "Either I included the wrong video or I heard wrong."  Interesting how so much of our descriptions about things are about right and wrong.

Anyway, his thoughts on perception still give an insight into why there is no cause and effect in the hologram.  There is really only a perception of what appears to be cause and effect.  Viewed from different angles and with different knowledge and emotion, other explanations for the cause of a thing would spring forth.

My son was reminding me of how the stock market works.  There is no science behind what controls the price of stock.  It is all based on emotion.  A tragic news story can fuel fear which can either drop or spike stock prices.  An event that makes people feel safe or happy can cause a rise or fall in a stock price.  That is why no one has invented a system or software program that can predict with complete accuracy what the stock market will do.   It is also easy to see how we can be maniuplated by the stories that the news decides to carry and the partiuclar way the story is slanted.  A "cause" is suggested, and then THE effect is shown.  But it is simply one view.

As Bohm discoverd, every view is limited.  Even our thoughts are appearances.....what appears to be true to the mind when viewed through a particular mirror.  And  when a particular view, theory, cause, or object is seen at a closer angle, it is not solid at all, and the deeper scientists go, there ends up being nothing - NO thing at all....simply the Field of ALL possibilities.

Cause and Effect is all made up - a story we tell.  And when we hear a certain story enough, we believe it as a truth.

In the end, there is only One cause and that is Conscousness Itself.  Consciousness decides what gets popped into the hologram.  And when viewed from another angle, cause and effect is actually reversed.  The effect of a thing is actually Consciousness and we put a story of "cause" to it.

When I went to find the other David Bohm clip on cause and effect, I realized that it was a man named Arthur Young who I had heard.  Here is his insight:

David Bohm: Perception

I came across this video of David Bohm when researching the subject of Cause and Effect.  I was thrilled to finally see and hear him speak after hearing so much about him. 

This video is a little hard to follow, but as I continued listening, I got a real insight into why there is no cause and effect in the hologram.

I was also going to share the insight that flashed as I watched, however, my brain is too tired to put words to it right now.  And I want to dedicate more space to what Darlene has come up with.

And now.....David Bohm:

Genesis 1:2

After reading that I had no idea what Genesis 1:2 meant, my friend Darlene gave me the best explanation that I've heard. In fact, when I heard it, I said, "Of course"!

And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters. Genesis 1:2

So here is the explanation I got from her:

This is what it means to me. This to me is talking about the Field of infinite potential. Unless Consciousness, God, focuses with intention and collapses a wave thereby creating something, the screen is blank...”without form and void”. There is nothing there unless I put it there. Consciousness moves over the “face of the waters” and decides intentionally to put something there to experience.

Darlene shared further about her insight into Cause and Effect and she asked me to share my insights in future blogs.  Well, I got researching right away and had a wonderful time listening to David Bohm explain it from his perspective..  I'll share Darlene's, David's amd mine tomorrow.

Could This World be a Matrix?

The following quote is to answer a question someone asked on a forum: "Could this world be a matrix?"

Most human entities spend their "waking" lives hypnotized by their sensory world, which gives them the illusion of a material reality "out there."

In reality, space and time are really nonexistent both at the level of Pure Aware Consciousness, and also at the level of the unaware "blind parts" that experience for It the illusion of creative thought within an illusory space/time construct called Creation.
Mankind rarely realizes that life is but a sensory illusion that gives experience and learning to Thought, and that the only reality is Thought Itself, which is forever evolving.

Consciousness can be defined as Awareness projected onto a vibratory Dream. Period. For Space/Time Creation it is but pure Dark lesser vibratory (conscious and subconscious) thought interacting more or less intensely with the inner Holographic Light/Thought Reality originating through the facets of The MATRIX ("Deep" of Genesis 1: 2).

Genesis 1:2 in the King James Bible says:

And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.

All the years I thought I understood it, and now I don't have a foggy clue what that scripture means!

Stroke of Insight

As I prepared links in my book: Real or Not Real, That is the Question, I got a chance to see another video clip of Jill Bolte Taylor describe her "Stroke of Insight". It ends too soon, but I heard details that reminded me again of Who I Am and where I've come from to play this amazing Human Game.

Seeing Beauty

I read this quote a few days ago from Neale Donald Walsch and decided to save it because something about it "twigged" with me. I think it is the last line. In the hologram, we canot see our own face except in a mirror. Others become the mirror with which we see the beauty in ourselves, perhaps because we first noticed beauty in them.

I don't know about that anymore...but what I do know is that today, I got an hour long phone call from a man who took many opportunities to tell me how amazing and beautiful and rare I am - the fairest in the land!

And wow, did these words make my day or what. It sure is nice to be on the receiving end, and yes, it did exactly as Neale said it would. It helped me to feel my grandest version of myself and it unleashed a lot of appreciation for this actor. 

Today is also the birthday of another actor who played a big part in my movie. I always wanted him to see himself as wonderful and amazing, but each time I said it, it made him uncomfortable and he often denied it. After awhile, I saw him as he saw himself. Then the time came when the radiance I had seen in myself began to fade too. The light went out in my eyes.

So while I do not need another to make me feel beautiful, (as there is no one else out there - all are reflections of the One), this hologram has been designed as a place of contrasts, and it sure feels wonderful when others see me in my best light.

So my birthday wish is that you remember WHO you are, as I seemed to reflect who you were not!

On this day of your life, dear friend, I believe God wants you to know...

...that to find beauty in everyone you must see beauty in everyone, then announce that you see it, for in announcing it, you place it there in their reality.

Do not miss a single chance -- not one single opportunity -- to tell someone how wonderful they are, how special they are, how important to you they are, how incredible as a person they are, how beautiful they are inside and out. Do not miss a single opening in which to insert such a comment, genuinely felt and genuinely meant.

Make it your life's mission today to bring to the attention of another just how extraordinary they are. Say it. Say it. SAY it. Their heart is waiting to know that their own best thought about themselves can be believed.

My Mini Book

I am having a most awesome experience right now, and have been all weekend. I'm getting my manuscript for my mini book ready to hand in tomorrow. I cannot remember a time that I have felt more fulfilled, other than the birth of each of my children.

The scented candles are glowing in my room and I alternate with beautiful music and silence. I'm connecting with my Muse and loving the experience of "channeling" the thoughts into words.

The message of this book is about what I've written here for the past 7 months: that life is like an elaborate maze, or hologram where we get to play the Human Game - which is where I limited my Unlimitedness so I could experience myself as opposite of Who I Am.

It is the grandest adventure I've ever been on and I express appreciation to my Expanded Self who designed every detail in my illusion so perfectly.

And today, I expressed appreciation to the great actor who plays my first born son in my full movie immersion experience. I cried as I thanked him for providing the space for me to experience so much happiness and fulfillment.

De-Pixelated

A few days ago, I discovered another anomaly that Kent saw in his travels awhile back. He saw a car on the side of the road, and as he got closer, it changed views from the picture of a car to the many pixels that make up the picture of a car. Then he watched it disappear one pixel at a time!

What is extroidinary to me is that Kent is a guy who supports my daughter on her journey to awaken from illusions, yet is not on that journey himself- at least, he has not announced it.

He has experienced quite a bit of weird stuff just by hearing someone suggest this earth is holographic in nature.

I want to say, "Not Fair"! I want to see through the illusions like that, which just shows me how much I still want "proof" through my senses.

Which is probably why I created an actor named Kent to share his experience with me!!!

Children

My youngest son is just like me - spirited and an "in your face" kind of guy. After not having him close in my life for a few years, I created him not being in my life at all for the last two. And that was never how I saw my script being written. I've loved having close relationships with my kids and they with each other.

A month before discovering that this life was all illusions of my own creation, I had my biggest rift with him. I was so glad that I did nothing but wait, as I discovered I had written the whole script and it was BY me and FOR me and there was nobody else in the room but me. He was simply acting the part of my son in this movie of mine. I laughed with joy. There was NO rift after all. It was all a figment of my imagination - and the discomfort and pain I felt was my huge blessing for discovering where I hid quite a bit of power.

At one point, in my pain, I remember thinking for the first time that perhaps I would write him out of the script, seeing as he didn't seem to want to be in my movie anymore. I've never thought that before, and I didn't feel guilty for it - which was quite amazing to realize, when my whole world has been my kids and grandkids.

Not long after, he came over and we had the first of many "healing" talks.
Then things got pleasant, then fun between us. Yesterday it hit me like a ton of bricks, "I did rewrite the script. The angry, distant actor son was replaced by the open, fun son. I was amazed at how quickly I was playing a whole new game with him.

Then today we had a fight! It started out so "good", and then I got the old script again. What was really weird is that we were talking about regaining power from a "bully" and being able to say "Stop" when all of a sudden, I felt judged and then attacked. It happened so fast. I felt myself begin to shrink and then I stopped, turned around a said, "Stop"...and I held up my hands. He didn't stop so I gave him a volley of words about how I felt. Rather than stopping and validating that, he got up and left the room. I had flashbacks of similar memories with my ex partner - only he didn't give me the gift of leaving the room so that we both could have the space and silence we needed from each other.

This time I re-read parts of Scheinfeld's book as I did the process. I read about how we play the game with our old rules....and then I saw it. I have lots of rules when it comes to "the order" of how a conversation should go, especially when there is a glitch. When someone is sharing their hurt with me and "telling me off", I let them have their say without interrupting and, even though it hurts, I appreciate the courage it took and let them know.

I want this same treatment and respect back. I have asked for it, fought for it, stood on my head for it, and here I was again facing this same thing. The "realness" of it faded. I began to smile. It wasn't that my rule was wrong, or that I couldn't have this desire. It was that I made the relationship real and the conversation real and the hurt real, therefore, order and respect and validation was needed.....and the other person HAD to understand that.

I took my power back and expressed great appreciation for this great actor who knows just what buttons to push and for acting so convincingly. Then I went to work and got most of the frustration out of my body. Normally, I would have gone to try to talk about it. But I wasn't inspired to do that. So after work, I came home to watch a movie before I was to babysit my granddaughter.

When the knock came, I assumed it was her, jumped up, opened the door and said, "Hi Honey", and it was my son. I smiled, went up to him and gave him a big hug. He said, "My comments were not invited, therefore, not called for" and I responded with, "Thank you. That means a lot to me." And then I invited him to stay for the rest of the movie.

I knew it would work out because now I was aware that it wasn't real and therefore, no problem even existed.

So he gets to keep the part of my son and I'm so lucky that he still wants me to play the part of his Mom.

Changes

With my former beliefs about God,and how life worked, when I wanted change I prayed, fasted, treated, lined up my vibration, got insights from numerology, read every book on the subject, attended lots of seminars and spent lots of time and effort.

After a year and a half of looking at this life totally different, I was wondering a few days ago if any changes have happened. Because I don't process or do anything to make a change anymore, I often don't notice what's happening on the outside.

But I am fully aware of what is happening on the inside! I wrote my friend about this:

Though I have not seen major changes in my hologram, the FEELING of awareness that it is all illusion is growing. I think of things that sent a scare wave through me before like my car being taken away as a small example, and there is a knowing that my car is a prop holding up a bunch of scenes with banks, government, finances. There is no fear anymore that it may disappear and no more feeling of being irresponsible.

That is a small example. The big examples are the ones I feel but cannot quite articulate.

My friend sent this reply:

I echo your thoughts about nothing major changing in your hologram but the FEELING of awareness is growing. That is exactly what is happening with me. Since what is happening is coming from Consciousness, then this is exactly what has to happen first before we can see any changes. Long before we actually see any changes we have to feel it.

I'm feeling it and loving it.

The Universe Lies Too

Even The Universe is making up crazy stories about me.....
Shows we all love a good story, even when it's not true...

Do you know what you've been doing lately in your nightly dreams, Marilyn?

No, no. Not the "naked hula hoop" dreams - are you kidding?! I'd never put those in print!

You've been reaching, helping, and bridging; teaching, guiding, and comforting; lighting, showing, and paving; reaching thousands upon thousands when you count the infinite ripple thing.
Yep, you're beginning to have the same profound effect here, as you've been having on Earth.

Thanks,
The Universe

And of course, none of our stories are true. The stories are a way for us to FEEL the full spectrum of emotion which give clues for the ultimate Hide and Seek game.....
Now where did I hide that hoola hoop?

Spinning and Swirling

Last night I awoke with that sense that something was wrong.  When a panic attack hits in the night, the adrenaline is surging before I have a chance to stop it.  My eyeballs popped open, my heart was racing and as I got up, it felt as if my legs would not carry me.

This time, I began the process of telling the Truth  (that this was not real, but simply an illusion that was reminding me to wake up) at the same time as I did the things that help calm me - drinking water, deep breathing, getting warm (as my body begins to shake with the stress) and taking some magnesium.  I could feel the surge want to ride to the top and spill over into a full attack (like I'm about to have a seizure). 

After the first wave passed, I decided to lay back down.  Normally, I have to pace.  Between two after shocks, I dove into the feelings and this time, I did not feel the panic get worse.  I really noticed my legs, which were going through a spinning, swirling sensation, giving me a feeling of floating, which is why I didn't know if they would hold me up.  All of a sudden, I remember what Jill Bolte Taylor said of her stroke when the left brain began to shut down programs.  Her body lost the dense feeling and became fluid.  Amazingly, I didn't immediately equate that thought with me having a stroke, rather, I felt intrigued.

I decided to do something very different.  I decided to enjoy this feeling of floating and I closed my eyes and leaned forward on my bed under a cozy blanket.  Then I almost fell asleep!   Usually, it's hours before I can sleep again.  There were no more after shocks and my body was completely calm.

My last thought was, "So this is what the illusionary body feels like.  Perhaps it hasn't been panic after all....perhaps it's been my body showing me what it feels like when it's returning to the All that Is, and I've just mistaken it for something scary."

I awoke this morning with such a deep feeling of appreciation for experiencing this and for the new insight into my holographic body.

Jeddah Mali

This interview with Jeddah Mali is mesmerizing to me. I felt like I was in the presence of Greatness - amazing grace, wisdom, knowledge and serenity. My friend Donna sent me this link and I will listen to it many times.

I tried to find the interview on Youtube so I could copy the embedded code for you, but I could not find this particular clip. So here is the link:

(All these things I've just mentioned are virtual reality, and just over a decade ago, did not exist in our hologram. Imagine a world without email, internet or Google. I remember being blown away by being able to have a street address and a virtual address that only existed in energy. It is still mind boggling to me).


http://www.ordinaryenlightenment.com/Jeddah.html

Prince Charming's Disguise

According to the Busting Loose model, discomfort or pain of any kind is what gives us the opportunity to wake up.

The other night I was feeling some discomfort and I realized that my insides were squirming....squirming to get away from the feeling. It's not only the natural thing to do, it's almost automatic.

It is designed that way to get our attention. One we retrain ourselves about the purpose of suffering and pain, we realize that there is another option. Follow that feeling and find out the power hidden deep down.

Without feelings that make us writhe, wrestle, wriggle, worm or squirm, we would have realized the Truth about this world much sooner, which would have made the game too easy!

Conversly, without that inside out discomfort, we may have never asked the questions that would lead us to the truth and we might stay asleep for 100 lifetimes!

Prince Charming has come to kiss us awake....only he is disguised as a frog!

Inception...Again

A friend treated my daughter and I to the movie, Inception tonight. This was my second time and it was as wild a ride as the first. In fact, I missed so many pieces the first time, I found myself thinking a number of times, "Oh that's how it happened"!

When we came out of the theatre, I was quite disoriented. It was like I just waking up in a different room and had to remember what day it was and whose house I slept at. The hall of the theatre looked so different and all of a sudden Teresa said, "Those stairs were not there when we came in." She didn't know it, but I didn't see any stairs at all! All I said was, "Man, I feel like I'm in a dream". Both my friend and Teresa agreed.

Outside, it felt different. When we went into the theatre, it was warm and when we came out, it was like winter was just around the corner. I started up my car and drove to the exit, only I hit a dead end. Now at this point, you have to know the movie is about getting lost in elaborate dream mazes. I said, "There's no road here, just a dead end - and as I said it I got excited, "JUST LIKE IN THE MOVIE". Teresa said, "Oh my - turn right. And I did and there was a little road, that led to a more main road, but both had stuff in the way which we had to drive around.

Ellen Page was one of the actors in the movie who was the architect for building the dreams. My daughter began to talk about how I had constructed a maze and when I looked at her, she looked exactly like Ellen Page. It was uncanny.

All the way home we talked about how we could feel, sometimes see that our waking dream (the state we have believed is our real world) is crumbling - just like in the movie. Many little happenings that aren't "normal" to what our past world felt like are happening. But then we throw in some more convincing details that make it all look real again, and then we forget.

So what wakes us up?
I had a terrific insight about that this morning that I would like to share in my next post.

Here is a different trailer than the one I posted last time:

I had a fantastic day writing my mini book. The words spilled off my fingers and took me in a different direction than I had expected. I love it when that happens, as I know I've connected with my Inner Muse.

My message is about the "waking up" and "busting loose" process. Some of the course leaders believe in the Law of Attraction, and I explain why I had to leave that thinking and belief behind. It gave me a slight nervous feeling, wondering what they would think of me.

As I finished the first chapter, I opened my email and there was a letter from Neale Donald Walsch, who is actually promoting this course. His words calmed me and validated my message, even though I had not asked or expected this.

On this day of your life, dear friend, I believe God wants you to know...

...that happiness, that grand mistress of the ceremonies in the dance of life, impels us through all its mazes and meandering, but leads none of us by the same route.

Charles Caleb Colton said that, and he was right. Therefore, since there is no One Way to find happiness, why not find it the way that appeals most to you? Why not follow your passion - even if others tell you that you are crazy for trying it?

Is someone telling you that now? Don't listen. Don't listen to that! The voice of caution knows nothing of real joy. What joy is there is doing what there was no doubt you could do? Where's the excitement in that? Hey, try something that you could fail at. Now that's living.

The Way

Neale Donald Walsch has captured the spirit of adventure in the quote below. He is another one that knows we are in a maze of illusions, and the way through is by doing what you are inspired to do:

On this day of your life, dear friend, I believe God wants you to know...
...that happiness, that grand mistress of the ceremonies in the dance of life, impels us through all its mazes and meandering, but leads none of us bythe same route.

Charles Caleb Colton said that, and he was right. Therefore, since there is no One Way to find happiness, why not find it the way that appeals most to you? Why not follow your passion --- even if others tell you that you are crazy for trying it?

Is someone telling you that now? Don't listen. Don't listen to that! The voice of caution knows nothing of real joy. What joy is there is doing what there was no doubt you could do? Where's the excitement in that? Hey, try something that you could fail at. Now that's living.

Bob Newhart's Cure

My writing course posted this cute video with Bob Newhart who plays a psychiatrist who has a two word cure for every problem.

How many addictions and afflictions we have suffered because we told a story about it, over and over again. Perhaps this cure would be helpful for busting loose from the problems we have fabricated:

Corn Maze

Saturday, Ryan, Olivia and I went to the Edmonton Corn Maze. Acres of paths through very tall corn. There are a few clues to lead you to the next post, and a neat IPhone Application to give the game a new feel, but other than that, you still get lost in loops before circling back to the "right" path.

It was very interesting for me as I was aware the whole time that this is what the Human Game feels like. It was funny, because both Ryan and I were irritated that too many people were in the maze and that some brought their dogs, which really added the stress for me.

Fascinating was that the maze was divided into two parts. On a sign board outside it actually said, "Phase 1 and Phase 2". Wow, all the amazing clues I left for myself.

After doing quite well and then getting lost, Ryan began to get anxious. He voiced his frustration and mumbled something about this not being fun anymore now that we were lost. Olivia immediately responded: "Daddy, that's the point. You are supposed to get lost. It's a maze!"

The voice of God coming from the 4 year old. She knew before she entered that we were "supposed" to get lost. He chuckled and then had an idea. He pulled out his Iphone and pulled up the arial view of the maze and he saw where we were and the quickest way out. He breathed a big sigh of relief. I wanted to play Phase 2 of the game, but he had had enough!

It was such a neat experience to be immersed in 10 foot high corn and not being able to see where the next turn led. I could also feel some anxiety about wandering for hours before finding our way out. So it was a perfect simulation within my simulation to describe this awesome game I am now playing on a much grander scale.

Then today, I got this letter from Mike Dooley:

I know you already know this, but Marilyn, the only way one can find their way is to first be lost. To make it big, start out small. To fall in love, first feel none. Yet, when such wishes are granted and the dreamers suddenly find themselves lost, small, and alone, you should hear the "expletives"!

So, look at it like this: Any such feelings are simply a sign that you've made a really, really big and daring "wish," and that its manifestation has already begun.

Foxy, clever, wry

The Universe

I don't quite agree with what he says the feelings mean. I would change it to, "Any such feelings are simply clues you've left yourself to remind you of where you hid your power, so that you can play a really, really big and daring part in your game."

Video on Holographic Matrix System

David Icke has been teaching about taking our power back from beliefs and illusions for over 30 years. I was fascinated by this particular message:

Amazon Order

My prepaid Visa has an $8 fee that comes off once a month, and if the balance is less than that, the fee is waived. So around the 4th of last month, I notice that I have just enough left on Visa to buy the book, You're Not Crazy, You're Just Waking Up (seen on the carrousel at the top of this blog).

So I ordered it and I had the neatest feeling when the transaction went through. I had not bought a new book in ages. An email from Amazon soon followed with my order number.

On the 8th, I checked my Visa balance and it was not what I was expecting. So I went into the transaction detail and there was no record of my Amazon order AND the $8 in fees had been taken off after all.

Well there went my book. I felt the disappointment, especially since I had so many glitches with my Visa and Paypal all month. I did the process until I could really feel that all of it was illusion.

A few days ago, I got a package in the mail. It was my book from Amazon!
Finally, one of my glitches turned out for "the better" (only my judgment on it as all of my creations are perfect).

How Amazon got paid, I don't know.
But I'm not asking either!!!

Paypal/Visa Part 2

And update on my story about the PayPal transaction for my writing course being cancelled and the time and phone calls to get this resolved:

Well, after another phone call to Paypal, and getting a different operator, it turns out the first payment went through after all! It was the second payment that the company tried to put through a few days later (instead of a month later like I thought it would) that got cancelled. It had nothing to do with my address with Visa not matching up and she didn't know why I was told that story.

All's well right? Well, I created a really weird thing when I went to pay the second and last installment. First, I had to go in and put money on my prepaid Visa card. I put extra on in case the exchange was higher. When I got home to pay through Paypal, I noticed that the exchange rate was $13 more! Last month I paid $307 Canadian, and now it was $320. I thought that was very odd, but I had put some extra on, but then saw that Paypal took off another three $1.50 amounts. The agent had explained that when any transaction happens, they hold back $1.50, then return it a few days later. But that meant I didn't have enough to pay for my course!

Next day, I put more money on. I had just over $100 in my bank, so I was shocked when my $30 transaction said "Non sufficient funds". I happened to find the $30 in cash, and then went home to find out what happened to my illusionary money! I discoverd that my employer's cheque bounced. I was now $100 in the hole.

But since I had put the money on Visa before that, I got my course paid for!But here is where it really got weird for me. After trying to put through the transaction again, no screen came up ahead of time telling me what the Canadian amount would be. AFTER the transaction went through, it said it would cost $304 Canadian! That is $16 less than it said an hour before. I thought my eyes were deceiving me - oh wait, even my eyes are a figment of my own imagination (as Jill Bolte Taylor so proundly discovered during her stroke).

After writing to the company who I bought the course from to say my payment had gone through, they wrote me back to say that the transaction was pending until September the 13th! Last time it went through right away. Which means, that after my fees come off on the 8th, I might not have enough money left again!

Even though all of this has been quite the saga, and I've felt quite frustrated at times, I am fully aware that I created it all and I have appreciated the genius of writing in this much crazy detail.

I have another short story to tell about Visa tomorrow. Well there really is no time, so there's no tomorrow, but I created time to give me the illusion of a past, present and future, when really, the past and future are all part of this present moment.

But there would be no story then, would there?

Two Sleeping Angels

How very fortunate I feel to be with both of my granddaughters right now. They are upstairs sleeping in their princess nighties and looking like Angels.

We were together all day playing games, going to the park, getting wet in the water, coming home to their two Daddies who were waiting to give them big kisses before they went out, leaving me and the girls to have our sleepover. It's been non stop adorable.

Looking at their sweet, innocent faces, I wonder what games they will decide to play here in the holgoram. I wonder if it will be easier for them to wake up because their Grammy, auntie and uncle are playing this human game (knowingly that is, as we all are playing a game called, "Let's see if I can hide my Divinity for awhile).

I know that they are safe as they play this game, so I can relax, knowing all is as it should be. I popped in a perfect day and I'm so glad that I left paradise to be here tonight!

Over the Rainbow

I like these wake up calls from Mike Dooley:

Somewhere, over the rainbow, Marilyn, there's a world where birds sing into every night, flowers bloom across every land, each problem has 10,000 solutions, and people live lives only to love and be loved...

Just like under the rainbow.

Ain't life grand?
The Universe

I can't begin to tell you how happy we've always been with your choice of Earth, Marilyn.

I'm so glad that I chose the hologram of Planet Earth too. I see through the smoke and mirrors a little more everyday and my level of joy has gone way up. So wonderful to know that no matter what I meet up with, I get to feel it, play with it and enjoy it, and appreciate myself for being the Author of it.

Quote from Holographic Universe

Michael Talbot's book The Holographic Universe has an interesting introduction that I would like to quote:

In the movie Star Wars, Luke Skywalker's adventure begins when a beam of light shoots out of the robot Artoo Deoo and projects a miniature three-dimensional image of Princess Leia. Luke watches spellbound as the ghostly sculture of light begs for someone named Ob-wan Kenobi to come to her assistance. The image is a holgoram, a three-dimensional picture made with the aid of a laser and the technological magic required to make such images is remarkable.

But what is even more astounding is that some scientists are beginning to believe the universe itself is a kind of giant hologram, a splendidly detailed illusion no more or less real than the image of Princess Leia that starts Luke on his quest.

Put another way, there is evidence to suggest that our world and everything in it - from snowflakes to maple trees to falling stars and spinning electrons - are also only ghostly images, projections from a level of reality so beyond our own it is literally beyond both space and time.

The main architects of this astonishing idea are two of the world's most eminent thinkers: University of London physicist David Bohm, a protege of Einstein's and one of the world's most respected quantum physicists; and Karl Pribram, a neurophysiologist at Stanford University and author of the classic neuropsychological textbook Languages of the Brain. Intriguingly, Bohm and Pribram arrived at their conclusions independently and while working from two very different directions.

Bohm became convinced of the universe's holographic nature only after years of dissatisfaction with standard theories' inability to explain all of the phenomena encountered in quantum physics.
Pribram became convinced because of the failure of standard theories of the brain to explain various neurophysiological puzzles.

After arriving at their views, Bohm and Pribram quickly realized the holographic model explained a number of other mysteries as well. But the most staggering thing about the holographic model was that it suddenly made sense of a wide range of phenomena so elusive they generally have been categorized outside of the province of scientific understanding.

Indeed, it quickly became apparent to the ever growing number of scientists who came to embrace the holographic model that it helped explain virtually all paranormal and mystical experiences, and in the last half dozen years or so, it has continued to galvanize researchers and shed light on an increasing number of previously inexplicable phenomena.

Just today, I emailed a friend and explained to him how this model has finally answered the main questions for me and a host of other previously unexplainable things that my 40 search for God/Truth/Love had not only NOT answered, but that had raised more questions.

The theory deserves a look for any seeker of Truth. Click on the book at the top of this page, and take a peek inside for more on this theory.