Posting Ads

It's been just over 2 months, and I still do not have ads placed for a lighting system that belongs to my ex partner. The first week I was back home, I spent parts of 3 days finding the descriptions, pictures and prices online. I searched website after website and finally, found many of the parts.

Before I could start, I had to update my daughter's anti-virus software. I then added all the data directly to the online ad company. That was a mistake. Usually, I put everything in a Word document, or write it out and send it to myself via an email. By the time 8 or so hours had gone by, something happened to her computer, and I lost all the data.

Since the equipment was at her place, and some of the pictures were saved in her computer, I HAD to do it at her house. Something always kept me from going back and redoing those ads.

Well, here I am! It is hot, I'm tired, and I've been at this again for over 2 hours. First thing I had to do was change the battery in her mouse. Then her anti-virus was outdated again. At this point I'm ready to give up on the whole thing, and ship the stuff off to storage somewhere. I noticed my stomach felt tight, my body became anxious as scenes from my life with him played in my mind. All clues that I still have some power to reclaim.

I had not done the process yet, and resisted. Finally, I decided to surrender these frustrating feelings and tell the Truth about this situation. All the equipment is illusion. The parts and the need to get them listed only exist in my mind. They are here to remind me that I am experiencing the opposite of Who I am and that this is just a very intricate and detailed movie - with very real looking graphics!

I smiled. Immediately I had an idea. I could take my own pictures of the parts! Now why I didn't think of that before is amazing. And I dumped some programs from this computer to speed it up, and now I don't fall asleep between screen changes!

This reminds me of something I read in Arnold Patent's new book, Bridges to Reality. I'll quote it for you in one of my next posts and put the book up at the top of this page....when I'm on a faster computer!