Old and Fat

I posted my thoughts a week or so ago about how wonderful it is to feel so beautiful and slim. Day after day, I will catch a glimpse of my face and see only beauty. Time after time I feel and look slim.

Well a few days ago, that image went "Poof"! Overnight I bloated and I felt fat, and a few times, I looked and felt old.

Both appearances are illusion. I just like the first illusion better! However, I got a chance to pull back more power from the body game.

And on the day I looked my worst, I also saw my ex husband. I have not seen him in over a year and today of all days, he comes by to see my son and granddaughter. My hair was in an ugly pony tail, and I was wearing my cleaning clothes and running shoes!

And just guess what he was wearing? A tux! He looked fantastic! In 35 years of knowing him, I've never seen him in a tux. How crazy is that?

But the best part for me, is that even with this being my "old and fat" day with ugly clothes, I did not feel that old feeling I always had with him. I did not feel inadequate. I had this feeling of knowing who I am and who I am is enough!

A few days later I was back to feeling beautiful again (with a few more illusionary pounds)!