The Good News

Olivia and I watched a Care Bears movie today and I was struck with how amazing the message was and how amazing religious programming can be.

When my children were small, I would not let them watch Care Bears. I had heard that it was a New Age cartoon story to influence kids to believe in a power other than God....which in this case, was the power of caring and having happy feelings. Isn't this the message all good parents would wish their kids could hear? My kids still kid me about this: "My Mom wouldn't let us watch Care Bears because she thought it was evil."

I still can't believe I went that far into fear....fear that there was this bad power called the devil who could take over your thinking and lead you astray - even disguising himself as an angel of light (or cute bears who help others to care).

So I had a good chuckle at myself today as I watched a tremendous movie. What struck me more than the great message, was how close it lined up with the Busting Loose concept.

The main message was how important feelings are - and the care bears' mission is to help others FEEL all their feelings and express them, as this is the key to power and happiness.

I watched as the Care Bears (who live in some kind of home in the sky) came down to earth through the cloud cover and then out into the sun shine when someone had broken through the gloomy feelings and were now feeling joy.

Seems my Expanded Self planted these clues 20-30 years ago, but I didn't get them because I was afraid of the message. I was living in a simulation within a simulation. First, I thought everything was real to begin with like everyone else on the planet, and then I crafted a simulation within that where the devil held the balance of power, even though I was told that God was the ALL powerful one. I was also told that I had to tell everyone the Good News about this loving God or they would go to hell forever. Sounds like the most horrible of horrible news to me. Gosh even a child could have figured that out to be one big lie.

I dug myself down so deep in that rabbit hole, it is amazing to me today that I saw any light at the end of that dark, evil tunnel. And now I finally understand a scripture that had me mystified: Be in the world, but not of it.

I'm having fun in this simulation now, becuase I know that the person I play in this matrix is not me.....a very amazing hologram for sure, but not me. I get to play out all the contrasts of light and dark and be safe and have fun doing it.

Now that's the Good News!

The "Not as With it" One

There's always someone in the family that is "not as with it" as another. Depending on what and who is being compared, one is more logical, stylish, smarter, faster and more "with it" than another. And most adult children pride themselves in being more "with it" than Mom or Dad.

These things cause pride or great insecurity, yet the thing is, everyone is at one time the "with it" one, and at other time, the "not as with it" one.

Now that I see life as a hologram, I see where the "with it" one is at a disadvantage. It would be very hard for that one to embrace anything outside of left brain, logical thinking.

And who knows, perhaps each of our holograms are so different that there is no set way that a thing is supposed to go anyway. Maybe there are many options for the same event - depending on who is hearing, seeing or feeling it - a little like asking 10 people what they saw when they witnessed an event, and hearing 10 different accounts of the same thing. Perhaps all ten accounts are true, even if they seem to contradict the other versions. What is chaotic and weird for one person or family may be completely normal for another.

All I know is that I won't feel so "with it" anymore when I'm with my parents, and I feel much less insecurity when I'm the one who is "not so with it". And built into the discomfort of feeling "not as with it" is the clue to go on a treausre hunt and discover that none of it is real anyway. It only exists in the mind.

Making of a Hologram

I found this little gem from a holography geek. He has build his own system for making holographic images. What surprised me was how close this set up was to the image in Robert Scheinfeld's book, Busting Loose From the Money Game.

And, though Walter Russel does not have a drawn image in his book, Secret of Light, (both books can be seen above) he does describe the split light beam, and the 3 mirrors that he saw in his trance and understood immediately how the whole universe was made. That secret of the light allowed him to understand and master his matrix (what Robert Scheinfeld calls, Busting Loose). He fulfilled every dream and accomplished in one lifetime what would take the average person 5 to 10 lifetimes to do.

The Talk

A few nights ago, there was a knock on my door. The family member with whom I have written about and with whom I've created some drama with, was standing there.

He asked if now was a good time to talk and I felt excited that this was going to be the beginning of a new story between us. He began with, "How can we heal the relationship between you and I?" which told me that he also wanted the rift healed.

After he shared about a few personality traits I have that are not good and things I did that he thought were wrong, I was able to say that this was his perception and I thanked him for sharing. When he asked if I agreed I said, "Not from my perspective. But it is how you saw or felt it, and you are hurting because of it and that's what matters.

All of a sudden he switched gears and said that this wasn't really about that, and now that he is an adult, he's responsible for his own healing. (Wow). He then related that he wasn't angry with me but he was angry with God. A God who he gave up two years of his life in spiritual study and then that God stood by while he had the worst year of his life. His beliefs were crumbling to dust and it was making him feel angry, lost and broken.

I felt the pain of his pain and at the same time, I felt the joy of his experience, for this process of dismantling former beliefs is a necessary part of finding pure joy....the thing he wants the most.

I was also able to express how sorry I was that I was not there to help him through the months of feeling lost. I also identified with him completely about feeling abandoned by God, but as I tried to say that this was a common experience, he felt it was only him who was going through it...a trick of ego to make him feel all alone.

I know that the purpose of our ego personality is to hide all our power, and it does so under layers and layers of judgment. This keeps us in enough pain and discomfort while we try to rediscover the basic human questions: Who am I and why am I here and why the hell can't I seem to figure it out.

I hurt like hell for him as I know how horrible it feels. I also rejoice that he took his search for Truth so seriously. He is so much closer now to his desire for pure joy and that is what I want for him more than anything.

The great anguish leads to the great awakening.

Olivia's Tears

Olivia, my granddaughter, returned from a plane trip this morning and had some pretty late nights. She also had lots of excitement and jet lag!

So about two hours later, the tears came. It wasn't the "normal" tears. She's been through a lot of emotional pain lately and out came the angry tears, then the grieving tears, and then the tears of being overwhelmed. As I told her some of the things that might make her feel that way, she yelled, "No, it's none of those things. I'M JUST GRUMPY!"

It lasted quite awhile, and I wanted to wait until she was calm before doing anything else or giving into her angry demands. I became aware of something we adults do when we think the crying is going on too long.

We either:
1. Try to make the child think of something else
2. Try to make the child laugh
3. Begin to get annoyed and tell the child it's time to stop
4. Leave the room if the child won't stop or send the child for a time out.

I was tempted to do all 4, but as each one came up for review, I realized how we try to do anything other than feel the pain and are uncomfortable when others are in pain. At one point, I thought it might be best if I left the room for a few minutes, as she seemed to fight anything I did, and as I moved to get up she yelled, "DON'T LEAVE ME".

Wow, did that send me to an old painful place. A place where the man in my life didn't know what to do with me when I was crying. He either didn't come near or if was near, ended up leaving. Of course, all I really needed was someone to let out my anger, grief and overwhelm with. If he left, I ended up feeling utterly devastated, alone, abandoned.

As I tapped into that feeling, I told Olivia that I would stay if she wanted me to and that she could cry for as long as she wanted. I had all day and I would hold her or just be with her if she didn't want to be held. She could be angry or sad and I loved her just the same as when she is happy.

It took only another few minutes after that. All of a sudden, she took a deep breath and said, "See, I'm being calm now." She asked if she could see her Mom and I said, "Let's go try to find her". So as we left the room she said, "I'm really hungry. Grammy, would you make me some eggs and toast?" Then she was thirsty and downed a big glass of water and then milk. She was now as happy as could be. The sparkle came back to her eyes and she began telling stories and giggling and ready for play.

She was just hungry! Hmmm, it was one of the things I hadn't thought of, but if I had, she would have denied it at the time. She was taking time to feel and express her anger and sadness and nothing was going to soothe it. And I took time to be with her and STAY with her during her pain. I gave her the gift I wish I had given my children more and which I wish I could have been given.

It was one of the most wonderful times I have ever had with her.

Inception

If you want to see another movie of what is possible with your dreams and how they can hide reality, then go see the movie, Inception.

My girlfriend and I went last night and both of us were amazed by the "Phase 2" language that is used throughout. We kept looking at each other when we heard terms that are now so familiar to us, and it was pure delight to see someone else's depiction of how we can get lost in the maze of the Human Game.

The reviews for this movie were fantastic, and exceptionally long because the film is so complicated. Here are the highlights and the movie trailer is below:

True inspiration is impossible to fake,” explains a character in Christopher Nolan’s existentialist heist film Inception. If that’s the case, then Inception is one of the most honest films ever made. Nolan has crafted a movie that’s beyond brilliant and layered both narratively and thematically. It requires the audience to take in a collection of rules, exceptions, locations, jobs, and abilities in order to understand the text, let alone the fascinating subtext. Nolan’s magnum opus is the first major blockbuster in over a decade that’s demanded intense viewer concentration, raised thoughtful and complex ideas, and wrapped everything all in a breathlessly exciting action film. Inception may be complicated, but simply put it’s one of the best movies of the year.

Inception requires so much exposition that a lesser director would have forced theaters to distribute pamphlets to audience members in order to explain the complicated world he’s developed. During my first draft of this view, I realized I had spent three paragraphs simply trying to explain the plot. I will simply avoid this exposition and present the movie’s basic premise. Inception centers on a team of individuals led by an “extractor” named Cobb (Leonardo DiCaprio) who, through the use of a special device, construct the dreams of a target and use those dreams to implant an idea so that the target will make a decision beneficial to the individual who hired the team. To say that scratches the surface would be an insult to both scratches and surfaces. But since it takes Nolan about fifty minutes to set everything up, I hope you’ll forgive my brevity.

Why is it so difficult to explain the plot in depth? The film layers dreams on top of dreams to the point where a unique keepsake called a “totem” is required in order to inform a character as to whether or not he or she is still dreaming. Then you have people in particular roles like “The Architect”, “The Forger”, and “The Chemist” in order to pull off the job. Furthermore, dreams have rules: dying in a dream forces the dreamer to wake up, delving too deeply into a mind can cause an eternal slumber called “Limbo”, using memories to construct dreams is dangerous because it can blur the line between dreams and reality. In addition, intruding in the dreams of another will cause the dreamer’s “projections” (human representations created by the dreamer) to attack the intruders like white blood cells going after an infection. And these explanations only represent a fraction of the terminology, rules, exceptions, or details that are necessary for creating the world of Inception.

It tends to be the case that lots of rules create lots of loopholes. Filmmakers can use these to cheat and let audiences fill in the leaps of logics. But Inception always plays fair. It will twist your mind but it’s not a film built on twists. It’s a film built on possibilities and the boldness of pursuing those possibilities. On my first viewing, the film experienced a technical malfunction where a misplaced reel skipped the movie forward by twenty minutes and then played the scene upside down and in reverse. Inception had already sent the audience through such a strange narrative labyrinth that almost everyone in the theater wasn’t sure if something had gone wrong or if Nolan had just made another bold decision.

The film deserves, demands, and rewards repeat viewings, but from your first viewing you can grasp the events on screen and how they interact with each other as long as you force yourself to be an active viewer. But with set pieces so intricate, so jaw-dropping, and so breathtaking, you’ll find that there’s no exertion needed to stay focused. You’ll already be swept up in the whirlwind.

Dark Tunnel

Right now, I'm processing the feelings that always seem to stay hidden at the bottom of the well. They were prompted as I read the story of Shania Twain and her painful divorce. And yet, in the background, always at her side, is an amazing, handsome, successful man who she says is her rock and who makes her laugh and gets her through the dark tunnel and above all, who makes her feel cherished. I feel a little cynical as I think, "poor woman". Yet I know the pain and I know what she's going through it. However, she still seems to have it all and is now poised for even greater success. In the meantime has love, has laughter and lots of money and can go wherever she wants to buy whatever healing she needs.

Another article was of a famous woman who is in her 60's and who has finally found love this late in life to an amazing man who has the whole ball of wax too - looks, money, education, success and above all, who knows how to make her feel cherished. I'm 57 and after another break up where I'm left with nothing, I wonder how long will it take?

I knew I had to go down the rabbit hole with this one. As I processed feelings of inadequecy, failure, not fulfilling my potential, being okay with just getting by, and 3 years spent loving someone who didn't have a clue how to make me feel cherished, and the worse - not being the role model for my children that I have always dreamed of so they can have a life of their dreams........a great big hole of pain opened up.

I heard myself say: "All the faith I had, all the belief, all the work, and I couldn't make my dream come true. I just couldn't pull it off."

When I heard that, I jumped up to record it in writing. I got to the crux of my key pain.

I'm going back to process now as this one will see the light of day and be exposed to The Truth and when it seeks to hide again, I'm going in after it and folling it wherever it leads me.

In the meantime, I know I've created it to seem to last forever and it is for the purpose of feeling the opposite of who I am. Well I succeeded. Yeah. I succeeded at something!

Now I'm processing the feeling of cynicism.

This busting loose process is about dismantling all the former beliefs about how it all worked, and stipping them all away to reveal The Truth that has been hiding underneath it all. Why? So I can finally pull it off? No, so that I can know and feel who I AM. For when I do, I already have it all, have pulled it all off and AM all I ever want to be and experience.

And until I feel that Truth deeply, you will find me on any given gorgeous Saturday, doing some cloud drilling work. And you will be the first to see the Light come streaming in at the end of this tunnel.

Instead of going to the beach, I get to go on a treasure hunt!

Robert's Video Clips

I'm enjoying reading Robert Scheinfeld's second book, Busting Loose From the Business Game. With each read, even if it is only 10 minutes or enough to be reminded of a key point, I'm filled with a sense of wonder and joy at the simple truth that's been staring me in the face for so long.

I was going to type a few passages, but then found a page of his video teachings and thought that would be better. Enjoy!

http://www.journeytotheinfinite.com/clips.html

Old and Fat

I posted my thoughts a week or so ago about how wonderful it is to feel so beautiful and slim. Day after day, I will catch a glimpse of my face and see only beauty. Time after time I feel and look slim.

Well a few days ago, that image went "Poof"! Overnight I bloated and I felt fat, and a few times, I looked and felt old.

Both appearances are illusion. I just like the first illusion better! However, I got a chance to pull back more power from the body game.

And on the day I looked my worst, I also saw my ex husband. I have not seen him in over a year and today of all days, he comes by to see my son and granddaughter. My hair was in an ugly pony tail, and I was wearing my cleaning clothes and running shoes!

And just guess what he was wearing? A tux! He looked fantastic! In 35 years of knowing him, I've never seen him in a tux. How crazy is that?

But the best part for me, is that even with this being my "old and fat" day with ugly clothes, I did not feel that old feeling I always had with him. I did not feel inadequate. I had this feeling of knowing who I am and who I am is enough!

A few days later I was back to feeling beautiful again (with a few more illusionary pounds)!

Blogger Glitches

Everytime I finish writing a post, I get some kind of glitch with Blogger.

I have already told you about the double double spacing. It happens everytime I change the guote color from black to green. So I have to go in and backspace each of those paragraphs.

Many times, I try to save, and there will be an error. Afte waiting a few minutes, it will save.

Then I've previews the blog and it looks a certain way, but then formats a little differently when published.

Today, a new glitch. I went to preview the post I just did on "Letter of Reminder" and I could see the text, then it vanished. The page said, "Done", but there was nothing there. I waited 10 minutes and tried again. Same thing. I repeated this process 3 or 4 times, and finally just pressed, "publish post".

And there it was....with the double double thing of course!

I still get slightly ticked off at this stuff. Then I remember and smile. None of this is real and my Expanded Self is here now to help me remember, whereas before, in Phase 1 of this amazing game, the point was to forget.

No more. I am getting somewhere. My friend actually felt the thick wall of the bubble around her. Sometimes Ihave a sense of code breaking down. So I appreciate each and every "glitch" that causes me to feel the discomfort enough.....long enough to remember!

Letter of Reminder

A few weeks ago, a friend who is playing the Phase 2 game, wrote about a distressing incident and asked for my support. As I wrote to remind her what this really was about, I realized the letter was for me. I still need daily reminders.

So here is the letter I wrote to myself:

I know why you wrote me.
I'm the one who will remind you what this is really about.
IF the busting loose model is true, then you already know that
this "incident" is NOT REAL.
It only appears real. That is why it doesn't go away....you planned it for an important reason.

Remember, we don't process to make things go away.
We process because we believed that it was real and now we want to remember to follow the discomfort to where more of our power is hidden.
If you don't process, you aren't doing anything wrong or immature.
If you do process, you aren't doing anything right or spiritual.
It is JUST a process to aid you in your deep quest to wake up out of the illusion and remember who you are and where your power is hidden so you can power up and play the game you intended to play here.

So time to tell the Truth.
You are the power and presence of God who has planned this dramatic and stressful detail. It is here has a huge clue to cause enough of a red siren wailing to awake you from the slumber of the illusion.
Smile now, as you are beginning to remember this.
You WANTED to experience limitation, so you came to the matrix.
It is a game. Only a game.
Process to find your power and then wait.
Wait for what?
INSPIRATION.
ONLY act when you have a direct experience of feeling inspired.
THEN if it is to be angry as hell or peaceful as a dove....go for it.
You won't add more power to the illusion when you go from direct inspiration.

If you get none, do not act.
You are not wrong if you act out of anger, fear or anxiety.
But if this model is correct, you will just add to the illusion and drain power from within and focus on power outside - what you and I have always done.
So stay alert.
Process only to remember who you are and reclaim power and express LOTS of appreciation for THIS VERY THING.
It is your gem.
Especially designed by you and for you, the Player.
You'll know why later. Don't try to figure that out now as the left brain will make too many more fake stories out of it and you will get lost again.

So now you've remembered.
Know that this yucky feeling IS YOUR POWER disguised!
So feel it fully.
Then Reclaim power NOW.....take a moment to feel it come surging in.
Wait until you do.
This being in the stillness is important...and I'm sure it is what Eckhart Tolle meant so long ago. Wait in stillness and FEEL your power come back.
Now smile and express appreciation at how you so cleverly tricked yourself into experiencing limitation and how perfect this holodeck is.
It got you to this place of drilling through more cloud cover.
It doesn't matter how long it takes. Time is also an illusion. We all know times when something seemed to take forever and it was only a minute.
We all know times that feel like they fly by and we wonder what happened to a whole month or year.

It is all perfect. We process until there are no more discomfort.
I don't care how long it takes for me. I want the truth.
It took Robert 3 full years and he had so many pieces all in place.
I'm giving myself 5 (less than 4 left) to let the Truth reveal itself to me.
For Truth is always here...just hidden under layers of lies and illusions.

And now I express appreciation to you for involving me, for just by writing this all out, it made me surge with joy at The Truth being revealed.
It will help me during my next red flashing light and perhaps others when they read this post.

We all want and need reminders for we are the player in our own movie experience and this is how we designed it - to have supporting actors to both tick us off and remind us of the Truth.
If you get to pin this "jerk" player to the wall and let loose your digust and anger, it will make for a very dramatic story you can pass on.
If you get to feel it all become nothing, that will make for an amazing story you can pass on.

Which will it be?
I can hardly wait for chapter two.

I no sooner finished writing the part about the red siren and flashing lights, when a fire truck screamed by! Later, I discovered that my friend made a phone call, and was relieved to discover that the situation was not as it appeared previously.

Wow, that was easy!

Price Glitch

I received the following letter from Robert Scheinfeld a few days ago about a weird thing that happened to him about his new book, but I kept forgetting to check on Amazon. Here is his letter:

Hi Marilyn ...

I just noticed that Amazon is selling "Busting Loose From
The Business Game" for just US$8.89 + shipping and handling.

I don't know why, nor does it matter -- just a story anyway.

If you've wanted to grab a copy but never have, you know
others who might want one, or you want additional copies for
whatever reason, it's unlikely you'll ever see it at a lower
expression of appreciation.

Robert Scheinfeld

I just checked and it is now $9.07! It cost more to buy it second hand! I don't remember seeing this before. So if you want one, go to the Amazon Carousel at the top of this page and click on that book.

Quick, before it keeps "appreciating" in cost!

Validation

Well this video sure made me SMILE! Laugh out loud actually. I am a woman. I LOVE to be validated. It came with an article on the top 10 things a woman loves and of course, number one was "She wants to be validated".

Each man I've had the honor of being with knows all too well how I articulated my desire for validation (often) and how, more often than not, I got a story which defended what they did or said. Gosh, they just didn't get it. Defending is the antithesis of validation and makes a woman feel unheard and uncared for.

I could write a book on it. It MATTERS so much to me. And that is where I have a shit load of power hidden!

Just the other day, I was saying to my daughter Teresa how it worked that way in the hologram and she corrected me. "It works that way in YOUR hologram. It is YOUR story, your rules, not necessarily anyone else's. And the fact that you find other stories and articles to "validate" your position (no pun intended) is simply what you've written into your script as well."

Darn it. She is right and I so want her to be wrong. I WANT this to be a universal truth that men learn about women so the world could be a much happier place!

So I went home and processed. And this is the very fun video that I found in an email in my inbox the very next day.

Haha...See Teresa?

Mom's Birthday

My Mom turned 80 years young today and I had the pure joy of being part of her having the best birthday EVER!

In my past script, planning what to get, having the money to buy it, then sending in the mail, and sending it soon enough to arrive ontime, were all such stressful details for me - for any celebration.

I realized today how much power I've pulled back from the illusions of lack and limitation because first of all, I knew what I was going to get her and had fun planning and sending the gift. It arrived BEFORE her birthday. Then the second part of her present was giving her hair a special treat - a cut by one of the best hairstylists in Nanaimo, and my sister paying for highlights. We arranged the tip as well, so she wouldn't know what we paid and so she didn't have to pay for anything. Then email money transfers to a friend on the Island who went in and paid for it. She not only did that, she took a beautiful vase with flowers to the salon that I had wanted my Mom to have.

My Mom phoned to say how wonderful it all was and how perfect her hair turned out and how gorgeous the vase was. Hearing her joy made me feel so much joy and I basked in the delight of how easy and fun it all was.

And another thing has changed in my hologram as well. I've never known my parents not to have drama and stress in their relationship. I've been the Negotiator for many years of my life between my parents, including helping them plan the end of their marriage as peacefully as possible. Then my Mom's health changed for the positive, then my Dad's changed for the negative. Then my Dad's attitude about my Mom changed for the positive (he said that he expected her to change, but realized that the change needed to start with him) and then my Mom's response to this change was that she changed for the positive. (of course, all of us women know how that works). Today she said that the card he gave her was wonderful and it was a Keeper. Next, I'm going to hear that HE is a Keeper.

How did this all happen so fast? (Though they may argue that it's been 66 years!) I've been doing the process on relationships. They are all aspects of myself and I'm pulling back power from making them all so real. This past year, I spent no energy trying to negotiate for my parents. I just simply validated each of their concerns and knew whatever they chose would be perfect and was already perfect. In the meantime, I was going through the most drama and stress with my partner that I'd ever known in any relationship. How weird was that? Their drama reminded me that it wasn't real, and I also knew that I didn't have to stay and repeat it for another month, never mind 60 more years!

And the gift I helped negotiate for my Mom (peace in her relationship) was not in the pre-script for me, however, the joy I feel in not feeling bad about that is amazing. Peace or war - all are illusions. And in this hologram, there is a time for everything...a time for peace and a time for war. How to know what time it is? Wait for inspiration.

So July 17th marks a new script in my Mom's life. She can be spoiled. (She never felt special) She can love her hair. (She has always had anxiety with her hair). She can get presents she loves. (I can fill a book with the presents she has hated). And she can be HAPPY! She gigles and laughs now. I don't know when my Mom was ever truly happy (except the day I picked her as my Mom and was birthed into the hologram of course)!

A new chapter begins. In her life and in mine. What a great present to give myself.

Monkey Business Illusion

Wow, this is fun. I saw the 'Invisible Gorilla' test on Yahoo, which shows how little we really see. Here is the article and the video of the new "Monkey Business Illusion Test". Fascinating.

A dumbfounding study roughly a decade ago that many now find hard to believe revealed that if people are asked to focus on a video of other people passing basketballs, about half of watchers missed a person in a gorilla suit walking in and out of the scene thumping its chest.

Now research delving further into this effect shows that people who know that such a surprising event is likely to occur are no better at noticing other unforeseen events - and may even be worse at noticing them - than others who aren't expecting the unexpected.

The so-called "invisible gorilla" test had volunteers watching a video where two groups of people - some dressed in white, some in black - are passing basketballs around. The volunteers were asked to count the passes among players dressed in white while ignoring the passes of those in black.

These confounding findings from cognitive psychologists Daniel Simons and Christopher Chabris detailed in a 1999 study revealed how people can focus so hard on something that they become blind to the unexpected, even when staring right at it. When one develops "inattentional blindness," as this effect is called, it becomes easy to miss details when one is not looking out for them.

"Although people do still try to rationalize why they missed the gorilla, it's hard to explain such a failure of awareness without confronting the possibility that we are aware of far less of our world than we think," Simons told LiveScience.

Gorilla infamy

Of course, these results are utterly counterintuitive, with 90 percent of people now predicting that they would notice the gorilla in the video. The problem is that this video has become so famous that many people know to look for a gorilla when asked to count basketball passes.

In new research, Simons decided to use the infamy of the invisible gorilla to his advantage, creating a similar video that asked for the same results from the audience.

"I thought it would be fun to see if I could monkey with people's intuitions again using almost the same task," Simons said.

Try his test out by watching the video below:

You're Not Crazy

I received an email from Darlene this morning describing an experience she had about waking up that blew me away. I haven't been able to stop thinking about it:

I had an amazing experience yesterday. I got up in the morning in a “fighting” mood. Expanded Self seems to want to use a certain situation a lot for reclaiming power. Seems every day there are little nitpicky things that come up and I feel petty and foolish. Yet, on the other hand, this is rich material for digging. I go at it, diving in to all my irritation and resentment. Oh man, I’ve done this so many times, I think to myself. I am SOOOO tired of feeling these feelings and having to yet again jump in and get out as much power as possible.

So when I was done, and I could really feel that the situation and the people are not real; that they are my actors playing out their parts in my movie, self-created, other aspects of Self... I was thinking about it all. About how often these feelings come up.

So anyway, I’m thinking about how my irritation and resentment is so pervasive, feel embarrassed, feel guilty. All I can do is process. I can’t ignore it and shame myself into making these feelings go away. It’s there. So process! Sometimes I’ve just finished processing and then I’ll see something else or something will get triggered and there I go again. I have the very real potential of turning into the World’s Worst Nag! So you see how pervasive it is.

As I was saying, I finished processing. And out of the blue, I could suddenly feel....now this is really hard to put into words. But I could sense the thickness, the all-encompassing layers of the hologram. I could feel myself RIGHT THERE IN THE MIDDLE OF IT... operating a body, thinking how amazing it is that we are plunged into this enveloping illusion, moving and manipulating a body that we TOTALLY believe is us. The illusion, the hologram, I could feel it squeezing all around me. And feeling that it was a bubble of illusion! I could sense its absolutely mind-boggling power to convince me that this is real! I could feel how it has the power to completely suck me in and obliterate all memory of my Infiniteness. How thick, how solid, it all appears! And it really, really takes something to break through a section of the bubble. I felt like I’d poked my head through a small part of it and was looking back into my whole experience in The Game.

Marilyn, it was so incredible. This direct experience. Then I got this email from Robert recommending another book for Phase 2 players. Did you get it? If you did, did you click on the link? It’s a book called “You’re Not Crazy, You’re Just Waking Up”. I clicked on the link and the book came up and the picture was spine tingling. I just stared at it with my jaw hanging open. It was exactly what I had felt minutes before. The picture described it.

After this, I figured that any processing I have to do or rather choose to do is so worth it, it is beyond words. I don’t think I’ll feel stupid ever again. If it’s coming up, no matter how petty or foolish it seems, it’s there for a reason. Expanded Self knows EXACTLY which key points of an illusion to blast. I never figured I’d have this kind of a powerful direct experience from “merely” processing irritation. This feels like a really major section of tunnel that got dynamited...all from a bunch of petty nuisances. Just goes to show the brilliance and genius of Self!

I had seen the book that Darlene is talking about. In fact, I had read the whole intro and I've put it in my book selection at the top of this blog. I had not really looked at the picture, as it didn't make sense to me anyway.

After reading Darlene's words, I immediately checked out the book cover. I had an OMG experience. She could feel the thickness of the bubble - she was at the edge of it, and actually began to go through it, and in the same day, she saw a picture of what she had just experienced!

I was blown away because I too thought, "I will process EVERYTHING that comes up from here on in and never think it is too little or too mundane." Secondly, I realized that Darlene had felt the very edges of the matrix, much like Trueman did in the movie, The Trueman Show. That gave me chills of recognition and incredible inspiration to keep drilling through my tunnels until I see the Light and put my hand through the veil of illusion.

I don't know if I'll be able to sleep tonight!

Old Souls

I liked this cute note I got from The Universe:

To young souls, Marilyn, there are good folks and bad folks.
To mature souls there are only good folks, though some do bad things.
And old souls, only see themselves.

I see you,
The Universe

P.S. And they love, love, love, Marilyn.

And the way I figure it, old souls caught on awhile back that it's quite the fascinating game we are playing here!